The week thats been

Well that week sucked big time.

Although I had at least one green smoothie a day - sometimes two - I also picked and snacked on cooked and processed food and pigged out a few times - sausages at a BBQ, toast for breaky one day, I baked a normal cake and biscuites a few days ago

( I didn't eat the cake - but did eat many of the cookies) even stooping to McDonalds Breaky today..

I feel gross, have a sore throat and have not dared to look at my measurements all week. I also have a headache and have had one most of the week.

I have to say its been a hard slog the last few weeks. If your family is not behind you - if they are not eating the same things as you are - it just stinks. I felt resentful and angry that I was eating what I was and the other members of the family were eating different - and in my mind - nicer - things than I was.

Having them say that what I was doing was good and looked great was one thing - but not doing it with me really took a toll on my resolve.

I know this is a testing period for me and I do need to push through it - but I am finding it really hard to do on my own.

I am resolving to have two green smoothies tommorrow and no processed crap. I made a heap of raw chocolate today - so have some yummy snacks to munch on... .and its organic box day tommorrow.. yay!

Right off the tracks

Well - started the day well.. test tasted my chocolate dream pie ( last entry) with my morning coffee, had a green smoothie made from lettuce, grapes and water for breaky. Had two apples for morning tea. I then started to get the munchies and dissatisfaction 'thing' happening. My salt and vinegar almonds are still not ready - neither are my soy seed mix - though that didn't stop me scooping a spoon full out and test them out.

drank another coffee, ate another apple, looked in the fridge and groaned.. its organic box day today - so there is nothing fabulous left in there.

I made a fruit salad for lunch but just picked at it. Just feeling bla about everything. The afternoon flew past and I felt rushed taking the kids to gymnastics, our plans changed with the evening and I ended up having to drive in to pick Age up straight from gymnastics - so sinned the worst ever - we went to Mcdonalds on the way. I had a garden salad and a mocha - but that still sucked big time - so got a lean beef burger as well.. and snuck three of the kids chips. I have to admit they were gross - I could taste the fatty oil and so salty. My burger was total bliss and I so wish it wasn't - I wish that it tasted like cardboard and I would swear never to eat one again.... a few hours on now and feeling a bit bloated and gross.

I'm not going to dwell on it - tomorrow is another day.